Purging Disorder

So I have never really considered myself bulimic because I have never really B/p I just P/ after everything I eat. I came to find out this is known as purging disorder. An eating disorder over looked frequently. I have lost 10lbs as of today. I am now at weight 202.6 I am super proud that I have gotten that much off so quickly! I hope to meet my goal very soon. I am sure it will be tough with Thanksgiving around the corner.

Doing Fairly Well

Yeterday was kind of rocky. I gained two lbs yesterday. I am at 207.0 now and my start weight was 212. So I have lost 5lbs in about 4 days or so. I hope to lose another 5 by the end of this week. More if possible, but thats my goal. My husband is in the Army and yesterday I made him and some soldiers some pies to eat, & the COOLEST thing happened. My husbands Serageant came out, dropped & gave me 5 push ups, & shook my hand. NO ONE DROPS A SERAGEANT! & I did it and I am a civilian. I loved it it was pretty awesome. Today I am going to work out my ab's & do some restricting. If I screw up I will purge. Hope all of you are doing well =)

I'm back!

So quick update. I moved to Georgia with my kids and my husband. He is stationed here with the army for a few months then in January we will be moving again to Washington. Its pretty far away. We are going back to Texas for Christmas break. All the soldiers get Exodus, which is basically 2 weeks leave. I gained some weight when my husband was gone to BCT, but I am now back on my weight-loss track. I started at 212 2 days ago and now I am down to 206.6. I think that is pretty great progress! It all goes according to plan I should be at 198 by next week. I want to look great when my family comes to visit me! in 3 weeks my dad is coming up for my sons birthday and I want to be at 190 by then at least. I have been restricting a lot. Yesterday I ate a banana for breakfast. I ate some other things too, but I purged it all. So all is good here so far! I hope all of you are doing well! I will update again soon.

Back On Track

So my husband left for boot camp 2 1/2 months ago, and his graduation is in like less then 2 weeks. I am so fucking annoyed that I wanted to lose 30lbs while he was gone and I HAVEN'T LOST SHIT. I may have actually gained a few pounds.I am so fucking embarrassed, you have no idea. I keep trying to lose it and its not coming off. I had a baby 5MO ago and I lost all my baby weight after 3 weeks and then it just came to a complete halt. I don't know if I got lazy or just fed up with not eating good food. Whatever it is that shit is over and done with. I am tired of hating myself. I am tired of being lazy. I am getting back on track. I am going to crash diet so hard. I will eat nothing but chicken! I am so serious. I move in 5 days to go be with my husband with he is at AIT, so I have been super busy, but this is going to be a big priority of mine. FOR SURE. I have got to lose this weight..I don't want my husband to be looking at someone who looks better then I do. I look like a fat fucking cow. 800cal a day at the most. If I slip, I will purge. I will start this Sunday, because tomorrow is my going away party and I am going to get wasted out of my mind. I'll try no food, though. Maybe I will actually get up and exercise tomorrow. Hmm, there is a thought.

She Who Waits, Also Serves

Attention everyone. My husband leaves for basic training in a few days & I have created a new blog covering my experiences as a military wife. I think you will really enjoy it. Give it a look & become a follower! Let me know what you think. Also, I will be covering my weightloss on that page as well. I would love to lose 30lbs before my husbands graduation. www.alwayswaitingforasoldier.blogspot.com

Where has my motivation gone?

I havent worked out in a freeking week. I have gotten so lazy and have burned 0 Calories! I have gained like 5lbs back and have been eating whatever I want. I hate that I lost my motivation. I want it back and I will get it back. I look pregnant again and that is not happening. I want my ED back. HELP ME.

not a good day

I feel really fucking fat and frustrated today. I must have changed clothes 20 times trying to find something that I wont look fat in!! Needless to say that was unsuccessful. Fuck this. Fuck being fat. I havent lost weight in a whole fucking week. Im about to say screw thw whole healthy gig and just starve and purge again. I just want to cut this fat off of me. Damnit!

ughhhhjhhj

I feel really fucking fat and frustrated today. I must have changed clothes 20 times trying to find something that I wont look fat in!! Needless to say that was unsuccessful. Fuck this. Fuck being fat. I havent lost weight in a whole fucking week. Im about to say screw thw whole healthy gig and just starve and purge again. I just want to cut this fat off of me. Damnit!

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Insanity!

Okay so the last 3 days I have weighed 197.6, but I broke my diet last night and ate a cheese burger. Yes, it did taste awsome, but this morning I weighed in at 200.1 which was so not worth it. I do not need to be back in the 200's and I will not be back in them ever again after I get back to the 190's. I should have just purged, but I don't want to go down that road again. I will lose this weight. I have a new goal. I want to be 180 by May 26, 2011. I think it is totally do able. Also, I have started Insanity and it is awsome. I hate it, but I love it. My husband is my personal trainer and a damn good one. He is so fit and sexy its crazy. Ill have to get a picture to upload soon. If he isn't with me I find myself cheating, but what I realize now is everytime I cheat I am cheating myself out of the results I want to see. I have lost 20lbs in 1 month. Thats pretty good, but if I want to reach my goal of 160/150 then I need to really push and dedicate myself more then I ever have. It's going to take a lot more then I have been doing. But I am ready and willing and I will reach my results. I hope everyone else is doing well!

happy days

So glad to be under 200 lbs-198.2lbs today!

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