not a good day

I feel really fucking fat and frustrated today. I must have changed clothes 20 times trying to find something that I wont look fat in!! Needless to say that was unsuccessful. Fuck this. Fuck being fat. I havent lost weight in a whole fucking week. Im about to say screw thw whole healthy gig and just starve and purge again. I just want to cut this fat off of me. Damnit!