So I went to my parents yesterday and my whole family was there with a suprise party! Yeyy, food. Not. I went in and they had all this food and a cake for my graduation ( that happened like forever ago) So they made me eat of course. =/ So yea yesterday wasn't that great. It was a pretty shitty day. And today hasn't been much better. I ate subway at like 3:00PM and then at 6:00PM I had some cereal. I didn't count calories. I am going to workout today but probably not for long because I have my niece spending the night here and we are doing fireworks later. Tomorrow I will be back on track for sure. I have to stop talking bout my diet because my fiance is getting pissed that I am starving myself to lose this weight. IDC I want it off and I will do anything to get there.
On another note, I bought new clothes today for my new job that I am starting and I hated how I had to get huge clothes. I will fit into a size 7 before this is over, I promise. Just please someone tell me how fat and nasty I look so I will not lose my control and I will stay motivated. Please I really need to get through this without taking steps backwards. I am taking laxatives tonight. Hopefully I can clean some of this crap out of my system!
This is how I felt today trying on my clothes.
oh darling we all have those days
ReplyDeleteand you will fit into that size 7
soon enough cuz you have the love
and support of everyone on here
and if you ever need someone I'm
here for you <3
keep up the hard work
and today was bad for me...
Don't get discourage if you ever need any motivation u can always ask me, I can always try and help :). you will do great!.. I know how u feel though I have those days too, I feel so fat sometimes its just sucks. Sometimes i just wish i can just lipo the fat out of me lol.. keep strong girl you can do it :). <3 I hope u have a better day tomorrow
ReplyDeleteBe really careful with laxatives, there are some horror stories about girls who become addicted to them and literally have (TMI moment!) "anal seepage". Pretty gnarly, yo.
ReplyDeleteTry drinking a ton of water. It'll make you feel better. And if you feel bad about your fiance knowing about you not eating, just try to hide it from him. Only eat when you're around him. Tell him you're just trying to get healthier for your son! That's what really matters. Is that little boy.
Size 7 will be here before you know it!
Oh hon! Did you purge? And be happy, it's nice that people cared to throw a party for you. Today is a new day. Workout hard, sweat yesterday off. You will feel better. Camille is right, be careful with laxatives, but drink lots of water!!
ReplyDeleteI am not going to tell you are disgusting or ugly, you are a beautiful girl. However, you are not where you want to be. Don't lose the weight so we see your beauty, lose it so YOU can see it.
Stay strong, darling! <3