7 Months Pregnant

Okay so I am now 7 Months pregnant with my daughter Natalie. I am proud to report that I have only gained 10lbs so far this pregnancy. I am excited to let everyone know that after I have her, I will be returning and blogging everyday regarding my post-pregnancy weight loss. I will be doing extreme fitness and trying to get down to 180lbs with in 3 Months(I am now 210) (I know, gross). I am excited to breast feed and to eat healthy again! Hopefully you can all follow my post once Natalie is born and you will get pics and videos of my transformation. Does anyone have any NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS for 2012?

   Also, I haven't been working. I quit my job because my boss was a bitch and I was in pain from my pregnany. I am not looking foward to rejoining to work-force after I have Natalie. I really want to be a stay at home mother with my kids. My husband is debating on going into the military. I am not sure how I feel about that. It is deffinetly a scary thought to think that I may not get to see him for months. Do any of you have an opinion on military life?

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pregnant:)

So a few weeks after my last post i found out i was pregnant with my second child. Gaining weight has really been a struggle forbme. I am 41/2 months a long and i have lost 2lbs and gained 1back. I am really excited to get back on track after this baby gets here. I already have a plan :) how has everyone else been?

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 I purged today. It felt amazing; I feel clean and pure once again. The binge however wasn't that good.  I love my new job. Today was a great first day and I really hope tomorrow is too. There is a down side to my new job though; they make you eat with the kids at lunch time. You have to eat what they bring you from the cafeteria. They said that we are role models and if we don't eat, the kids wont eat. So, yea. Not exactly what I had in mind, but at least its fat free, low sugar food.

 I need to plan what I ear after work a little better.  Something very low calorie. I also need to integrate some exercise each day. At least an hour. I have to pull any energy I can out because I am going to work 8hrs a day as a teacher, go to college for 3hrs on Thursday and Saturday, and be a wife and mother. I can do this!  I will find the will power. And I wanted to say thank you to all my followers and to my new partner Heather. If anyone else needs support I will be happy to text you through out the day as well. We will get through this.

FUCK!

I am so sick of this bullshit. I am sick of not being able to control myself. That ends today. Fuck that shit. Fuck weakness.

Fuck it.

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CW: 194.6
GW: 162.2

Breakfast:
Apple
Total Calories: 80

Lunch:
1/2 can of Pregresso Soup
1 Piece of bread w/ Nutella
Total Calories: About 200

I weighed myself this morning and to my surprise I didn't gain any weight this weekend. I was really worried that I would gain like 4lbs. So today I am going to try to do better and get back on track. I will have a workout today. My arms are still very sore from my last workout. I know I can do this; We can do this. I start my new job tomorrow so hopefully that will help me lose more weight. Hopefully no one will notice at my job that I am not eating much , I really don't want people to know.
  Also, I wanted to say thanks to all my supporters. And to answer your question, no I didn't purge this weekend. My parents bathroom doesn't have a doorknob so I can't even really close the door. But if I need to, and if I get a chance, I will purge. How was your holiday?

                                          This song is amazing <3

Suprise!! (84)

So I went to my parents yesterday and my whole family was there with a suprise party! Yeyy, food. Not. I went in and they had all this food and a cake for my graduation ( that happened like forever ago) So they made me eat of course. =/ So yea yesterday wasn't that great. It was a pretty shitty day. And today hasn't been much better. I ate subway at like 3:00PM and then at 6:00PM I had some cereal. I didn't count calories. I am going to workout today but probably not for long because I have my niece spending the night here and we are doing fireworks later. Tomorrow I will be back on track for sure. I have to stop talking bout my diet because my fiance is getting pissed that I am starving myself to lose this weight. IDC I want it off and I will do anything to get there.
  On another note, I bought new clothes today for my new job that I am starting and I hated how I had to get huge clothes. I will fit into a size 7 before this is over, I promise. Just please someone tell me how fat and nasty I look so I will not lose my control and I will stay motivated. Please I really need to get through this without taking steps backwards. I am taking laxatives tonight. Hopefully I can clean some of this crap out of my system!

                                              This is how I felt today trying on my clothes.

Support

I really need some support from you guys. Its 3:00PM and I have eaten 191 Calories today. I really feel like I need some support. I feel like I am losing control and I just need some inspiration. I know I am making progress, but I feel like the more I eat the more control I am losing. I need to create a thinspo. I am about to go workout and I want to burn at least 300 Calories. Maybe more if possible. I deff need to work on my arms and my belly bulge.

Measurments & Photos Week 1 (85)

CW: 194.2
GW: 162.2

Measurements:
Stomach: 45IN
Thighs:27 1/2IN
Arms: 16 IN
Bust: 42IN

Breakfast:
1/2 Bananna
3 Boiled eggs
Total Calories:91

Lunch:
Yogurt
Total Calories: 100

Dinner:
Apple
Total Calories:80

Daily Calories: 271

So I thought I was going to do pretty good yesterday...WRONG. I ended up binging for the first time since my diet. I call it a binge but I didn't have more then probably 600Calories. I purged what I ate the first time, then ate some cereal =/. It felt so good to purge. Its been a while, I loved the feeling of getting rid of the food and feeling empty again. I also liked the feeling of having a secret that no one knew about. I have to be careful though or my husband will hear me and will get pissed. I still lost weight this morning so I am excited about that. I am probably going to my parents house today for the 4th of July so I am worried that there is going to be bad food there. They never have healthy food and they always go to this Chinese restaurant that I love. I am not going to eat there. What do you suggest me do? Maybe I can stick to the salad? Anyway, I took my weekly photos this morning and I can definitely see results already. I still look nasty, but its a start right? You can go to my first post to see my old pics.I also wanted to say thank you to all my supporters, especially Camille. You guys have really helped me stay strong in more ways then you can know.

I love this song<3 Camille Inspired me lol

Early Morning Day (86)

CW: 195.6
GW: 162.2
Days Left: 86

 So I got up early this morning(9AM) well early for me anyway, and I had a good workout. I didn't end up working out last night like I should have so I decided to workout twice today. I burned about 300 calories this morning( probably a little more because of my sweat suit). I am going to try to fast today if I can. I am already hungry, but I am going to try to stay full of water. If I have to eat I will only eat the white part of a hard boiled egg. This amounts to about 17 Calories a piece. I gained a little weight yesterday but I know its only water weight. I drank about 3 litters of water yesterday late at night so I didn't expect to lose any. I am ready to weigh tomorrow. I am loving my thinspos I have been finding. They are great.
  I looked at myself in the mirror earlier and hated what I saw. My back is so fat, I wish I could just cut it off of me. I can't wait till I am thin, that way my back fat and love handles wont be there any longer. I love my back dimples and I can't wait till they look sexy again. I am really working hard for this. I know I will get there, eventually.

Edit: So its 6:40PM and I tried really hard to go through with my fast, but I ended up having to eat something. I ate light progressive veggie soup. It totaled 80 Calories. I am kind of disappointed that I couldn't fast, but this is the lowest intake I have ever had in one day so I am very excited as well. I am so full of water I drank about 3L of water today. I hope I am not bloated tomorrow. I know I am right now. How have you guys been?

XOXO-

Victoria

A Thinspo I Created. Enjoy It. =D Tell Me What You Think.

Awsome(87)

Weight: 195.1
 Goal: 162.2

 Breakfast: 
Granola Bar
Total Calories: 150

Lunch:
Subway
Total Calories: 320

Dinner:
Coffee
Total Calories: 30

Daily Calories: 500

  So I had my new job orientation today and we had to get a physical afterwards and when I weighed myself at the doctor it said I weigh 195! I was so excited. So this means either one of two things. My scale is off, or I lost a shit load of weight yesterday.  So yea that mad me very happy when I saw it. I am super proud of myself. I really don't feel like working out today, but I think I will make myself have a workout late tonight anyway. I have to keep up this great progress. I don't know if anyone really believes I will lose this weight. Specifically my husband. I have gone on these diets so many times before and gave up soon after, but I want to prove everyone wrong this time and show them how serious I am.
   I woke up last night terrified for some reason. I guess I had a nightmare; I couldn't go back to sleep. Your blogs definitely kept me entertained. I ended up purging my spaghetti from last night. Not all of it because most of it was already digested, but when I woke up I felt sick to my stomach so I made myself puke and I felt a lot better. I am not sure if I got sick because of my body change to food or what. I am not going to eat dinner today, I want to stay low on my numbers. I got a huge water bottle today so I can make sure I am always full of water. I am ready to weigh tomorrow and see what the scale says. It may be off so I will probably be disappointed, but I hope it has something low on it. Lower then 195. Thank you guys for all of your support! We will get to where we want to be.

XOXO-

Victoria

Thinspirational Thoughts<3

A Shitty Haircut & A Rude Comment(88 Continued)

 I got my hair cut today by a friend and told her not to make my hair short, and guess what?? ITS SHORT. I was trying to grow my hair out from when I last cut it, but nooooooo that's too much to ask. So I have this shitty hair cut and I know I hate it and as soon as I walk in the door my husband and all his friends are in my house playing FIFA Soccer. This is how the conversation went as soon as I walked in the door Angel: " Why did you get it short" Me: I didn't, Laura cut it short" " I don't like it short, its fucking ugly when its short." WTF right? He said it in front of 5 of his guy friends and embarrassed the shit out of me. That's good for my self esteem right? So I told him that shit hurt my feelings and he said he was joking of course like all men say. I didn't think that shit was funny.
  Also I have been getting dizzy all day long. I ate 380 calories today so I am sure that's why. But that also makes me feel good because I know I am doing something right. I hope I lose some more by tomorrow. I had a great workout today and I am pleased with my progress. How have you been doing? Leave me Thinspirational Thoughts! =)

New Haircut

After Workout( I know I look like shit, don't judge me)

This Is Bullshit.(88 days)

Weight: 200. fucking 8
Goal Weight: 162.2
New Weight:199.6


  I am so fucking pissed this morning because of the fact that I gained .4lbs. What that fuck is that about? I mean really, I ate way less then I have been yesterday and I worked out for a little longer so I am completely baffled that I GAINED weight! How could this happen? I was doing so well. I thought that maybe it has to do with the large water I drank this morning, but even so that is really some bullshit. I wanted to see a number in the 100's today. I was sure I was going to see 199. It also could be a malfunction with my scale hopefully because it needs battery's. Who am I kidding? I am just making up excuses. I must have gotten on and off the scale 25 times hoping that the number would change. I picked up my(digital) scale and moved it around hoping it would change. It didn't. My stomach is growling and I am starving, but I refuse to eat anything today until that scale say 190-something. I don't care if its 199.9 that scale better change today if my body knows whats good for it. Also I wanted to clear something up. My ultimate goal weight is like 140-135, but I want to be at 162.2 88 days from now.

Edit: I just weighed myself again after a little while and it said 199.6. Hello 100's!!  I am so excited!

  On another note I want to say welcome to my new followers! I am glad to have you and I look forward to reading your blogs. I love to hear from my readers so go leave some Thinspirational Thoughts!

Lunch:
Whole wheat bagle
Cream cheese
1/2 Can Progresso Soup
Total Calories: 380

Dinner:  Spaghetti
Total Calories: 400

Daily Calories:780

XOXO-
Victoria

89 days to go&feeling great!

Weight:200.4
Goal weight:162.2


Breakfast:
Rice Cake
Granola Bar
Total Calories: 200

Lunch:
Corn on the cob
Yogurt
Total Calories: 200

Dinner:
Corn On Cob
Coffee(3)
Total Calories: 180

Daily Calories: 580

Exercise: 1hr Elliptical, Run, Ab's, jump rope, punching bag, speed bag.


 I weighed myself this morning and I lost another lb! i am super excited to keep up the great work. I feel like the less I eat each day the less I can eat the next day. Its a great feeling. However, my fiance is worried about me because he doesn't want me to be starving myself or purging. I told him I haven't been purging at all, I am not sure if he believes me. He told me that if he feels like I am starving myself that he will put an end to my diet. I have to make sure I am constantly eating something every few hours. I have found that rice cakes are great and only 50 Calories. Also apples that are cut up into slices are great too because you can eat one or two every hour that way you will trick your body into thinking your not hungry.


Question for my readers: do you weigh everyday, twice a day, multiple times a day, or once a week?Also, what is your favorite way to stay full with low calories?

This is my husbands sexy ass boxer body. And I look like I do? No, not for long.(this pic was taken a while back, he looks even better now.)

Evening Notes: I am very happy with my calorie intake today. I can't wait to weigh tomorrow! =)

Weigh In day 3(90 days to go) & other things

Weight: 201.0
Goal Weight:162.2

Breakfast:
Whole Wheat Cheese Crackers
Total Calories: 190

Lunch:

4OZ Meat
1Apple
Miscellaneous-60 ( what ever else may have entered my mouth)
Total Calories: 330

Dinner:
Cereal
Total Calories:350


Daily Total: 870





   So it looks like I only lost .2 of a lb yesterday. I am kind of disappointed in myself because I didn't lose more, but then I realized that it is only the second day and I have already lost 2lbs. I am super sore today which makes me happy. I just need to workout more today and eat less. I can do this. WE can do this. I am going to create a thinspo slide show for you guys today. We can do this. Keep up the good work!



  Notes: I was absolutly starving today! I only had about 440 calories then ended up caving around 10PM or so and ate some cereal.My workout wasn't very intense today because I was so sore. I am excided to see how sore I am tomorrow. I feel like I am making progress, but I am not making it as fast as I would like to. I need to lose like 3.3lbs a week to reach my goal, but I want to do it faster. Have you heard of the ABC diet? What do you think about it? Have you tried it? Also I need to lose 3.07lbs a week to reach my goal.

Where I am(ugh)

Where I will be once again!



Your Daily Thinspiration!!

Ill get there.

Weigh In Day 2(91 days to go)

Weight: 201.4
Goal Weight: 162.2

Breakfast:
Egg whites(3)
1 Large Apple
Total Calories:131

Lunch:
Whole Wheat Bagel
2Tbsp Cream Cheese
Drink of protein drink
Total Calories: 330

Dinner:
1 Apple
1Cup Zucchini
Protein Drink
Total Calories: 318




Exercise: 30-45 Minutes. Elliptical, boxing, jump rope, Ab's.

Total: 779


  Notes: I have decided that I will only take measurements on Mondays when I post my pictures. I think I will be happier with the results rather then doing them every day. I am proud of myself today. I worked out very hard and sweat so much with the sweat suit. I know I am going to be sore because I already am.Go Me!!

I am on my way to looking like this, and I won't stop till I get there!

Thinspration!

A little collage I put together of a few of the people that inspire me. I want to look like them. Ihope this can help you reach your goal in some small way.

Measurements Day 1(92 days to go)

Weight: 202.8
Goal Weight: 162.8
Maximan Colorie Intake: 1,000


Food Diary:


Breakfest:
Whole Wheat Biscut
1 small egg white
Total Calories: 187

Drink:
V8
Total Calories: 70

Snack:
Yogurt
Rice Cake(3)
Total Calories: 260

Dinner:
Whole Wheat Spaghetti w/Sauce/ no meat
Total Calories: 310

Total Daily Intake: 827 Calories

Measurements:
Waist- 46IN
Thighs- 28IN
Arms- 16IN
Breast- 44IN

Workout:
20Minutes with sweat bag. Boxing, Jumprope, Ab's

Notes: Today is the first day I have measured myself and I feel really nasty. I let myself get this bad off and its no ones fault but mine. I will shrink and I will lose 40lbs in 3months.

Three Months From Now

This is just going to be a personal way for me to track my weight loss and basically be a food diary for me to help me stay motivated. You are welcome to read if that's what you wish to do. I am a 19 year old female who has been struggling with my weight since I had my son at the age of 15.  My weight as of this evening is 210lbs. My goal weight is 140. On 9/26/11 I want to be at or under 170. This is going to be a large effort on my part. I am going to work my butt off and try to lose weight the healthy way. However, I am not sure how to do that. I suffer from bulimia and I am going to try to avoid my old "habits". I will make an entry each day on my weight, my exercises, and what I ate that day. This is for my personal use, but comments are welcome. I will also post a new picture each week to track my progress.