Fuck

Im at 205 again this morning. Fuck. Thats all.

203

I went from 217 to 203 in just 12 days. My head has been killing me because of calorie restriction I think. It feels good, but I know I cant start this shit again. I hope the headaches stop and my body heals fast so I can workout again. I am starting Insanity soon and am excited.i hope the weight keeps falling off. My husband stays on my ass all the time about if im eating or not because im losing weight so fast. Its fine though. I know he cares.

I feel it coming

I feel my ed coming back. I don't want it to, but I find myself restricting more and more without even realizing it. Its 4:00 in the afternoon and all I have eaten today is a bananna oatmeal milk shake. My head hurts. I know I can't start this again. I have two kids to take care of, one of which I am breastfeeding. I don't want to take any nutrition away from her. I don't want to be sick again.

Well looks like I lost another lb lastnight. Pretty excited to get back on track with my weightloss. Here is a great website for ab workouts that seem to work and be pretty easy. I am excited to start it tomorrow. Possibly today.http://www.wholeliving.com/150931/6-core-truths Here are some thispirational photos

IM BACK! [[Post baby body]][& other life changing events]

Hey everyone. I know I haven't been on in a while. I have been waiting on a very special moment to come back. I am now the mother to a beautiful baby girl named Natalie. I am so blessed to have such a great lady in my life. She is such a good baby and only cries when she is hungry. I am lucky to have two great kids. It has been 8 days since I have had her and the day I left the hospital I weighed 217. I am now down to 205 and only 5 days away from my pre baby weight. I have to admit the weight is coming off fairly easy. I have worked out lightly since I have had her, but have tried not to do too much. I have purchased the Insanity workout plan and I will be starting that next week.I have already done the fit test and I was sore after just one workout. I hope to be back to my pre baby body at least by the time my daughter is 3 weeks old. I am breastfeeding and have been eating super healthy(mostly just chicken). I want to lose weight the right way this time. I want to get to my goal weight 150 as soon as possible.

   In other news, I will be moving in about 5 months because my husband has joined the military! I am so proud of him, but also very scared to be away from him for the 2 1/2 months he will be at basic. I am hoping we can move with him to AIT when he goes since he will be there for 5 months. He will be in Georgia at that time. I am so excited to see where we will be living after that. I am hoping for somewhere with a beach. Hawii hopefully.lol My husband is going to be a Multi-Channel Transmission Systems operator. Apparently it is a very good job. I am of course worried about deployment and when that time comes I am sure it will be very difficult. I just have to remember that this is making a better life for me and my children. I will just pray nothing happens to him. I love him to death. He is my bestfriend and I couldn't imagine living without him. I am sure to miss him terribley when he is gone. Anyway thats it for today! I will post more later and I am so happy to be back!