I feel really fucking fat and frustrated today. I must have changed clothes 20 times trying to find something that I wont look fat in!! Needless to say that was unsuccessful. Fuck this. Fuck being fat. I havent lost weight in a whole fucking week. Im about to say screw thw whole healthy gig and just starve and purge again. I just want to cut this fat off of me. Damnit!
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I know exactly how you feel. I end up trashing my room with clothes in an attempt to find something I like. My carpet becomes a layer of cotton, before my mirror shows me any sort of satisfaction. I guess that's why I stick to the clothes that I feel good in, and avoid anything that might be out of my comfort zone. :\ I just wish I could get dressed without even looking in a mirror. I just wish I KNEW that I looked fine, but I can't help but feel like my fat is just hanging out everywhere all the time.
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